betrayal.

Betrayal. How blessed are those who have not experienced betrayal, she thought to herself. Still, she thought, perhaps those who have experienced it are more blessed, for Christ himself was betrayed - and by a close friend, no less. 

Ah yes, betrayal. Whether it comes from a friend or a lover, it's always a painful experience.

In her personal experience, it was also a hard thing to get over... getting to that point of "over" seemed to take forever. It reminded her of a line from an Alison Krauss song, "When forever's over, I won't remember how much I loved you, anymore." The song was about a lover, but she realized those words were just as true for those betrayed or abandoned by a dearly loved friend, as she had been.

Maybe when forever's over, it won't matter anymore, the hurt will be gone, the scar faded.

Maybe when forever's over, thoughts of how things used to be won't chase me down, she thought. I've forgiven, but I definitely haven't forgotten. Too many memories. Maybe the memory of that cherished friendship will fade like a sunset. Maybe I won't still wish I'd had the sense to see it coming long before it happened. 


A friend had once told her that to get over losing a relationship with anyone, you had to experience every season of the year you'd experienced with that person, without them. Maybe that friend was right. She certainly hoped so, for if it was true, she was nearly there. Many new doors had been opened for her, but she felt she was still waiting on this one to close.